Cant Believe This Happened (Long Poem *Rape*)

I can’t believe this has happened To such a person It is burning in her eyes The fiery pain of hate Hate so deep you could never find it Down a deep hole of shadow and despair You see how she stares at you With eyes so scared and filled with hate You don’t understand what you did To make her this way She was one of your best friends Until after one day She was with you all the time And she always called you at the right time When you wanted someone to talk to She was always there before that day At a friends party that got away You don’t remember how it went All that stayed in that head of yours Was only when you came You were with her in the beginning And you don’t know about the end You drank a couple of beers with her And got a little ahead Until then you don’t remember That needed to know night Your friends tell you “Way-ta-go” Yet you don’t know why All you went for was a midnight ride For a party and that’s all Finally someone breaks and tells you the news “You had took advantage of your very best friend And did it with her that very same night She said no at first but you gave her more drinks Making her not have a thought of mind” You fall back to the wall Thinking you couldn’t have done this anyone You look back at you very best friend And tears swell in your eyes as she stares with hate Hiding that very date Not wanting you to be in trouble Counted as rape You love her even more and still feel like shit For what you had done to this very friend All because of a party and a little bit of Bacardi She finally says “Hi” to you one fateful day After you trying so hard to talk to her You don’t know what to say Having the thought of you and her You stand so silent She stands there looking at the side of you As you look at her eyes Burning with fear and hate “Im sorry” you finally say She still don’t stir thinking away Tears start to fill her eyes As she thinks of that very night “There is nothing you can do to make me change the way I feel for you, But that night has made us one and yet it doesn’t fade The way I think of you I will never be able to forgive you But I try not to think of it too” You smile and go to hug her but she pushes you away Saying that you can’t be this way “I have a boyfriend now” Turning her head “I still hate you and can’t believe you yet I still love you.” She runs away from you as you stand there with everyone staring To shocked to move you break down and fall To the ground cupping you head in your hands Pouring your eyes out thinking about it all You wish you never went You hate yourself now. Five months later not talking to her only seeing her pass by Never meeting eye to eye She stops showing up at school You get a note in the mail saying “To a Dear friend You were my best friend through thick and thin You were always there when I needed you most Yet until that stupid party with Drugs and alcohol You took the most precious thing to me the only thing I could never get back I wanted it to be with someone special my very first time Not drunk and wasted being rapped as they call, taken advantage of And by the worst person of all But im glad it was you someone I trusted Yet when you have this letter I shall be dead My boyfriend raped me as well just like you did But im glad you got me first. I hate you but still love you.” You can’t think of anything to say You start to cry and fill with rage You go to school and see the guy Who was with you friend As you almost pass by You can’t stop yourself as the hate takes over With one fast swipe you knock him down To the ground, passed out he is But you still won’t give in Harder and harder you punch Blood spewing out People pull you away to find this bloody boy on the ground The police are called and in cuffs you go Down at the station they tell you so The boy is dead and you might go to jail even though You did it because you care You show them the letter and they confirm it’s true. Now you’re in jail Hopping its fair For only a few months. Everyone hates you now even though you don’t care At least you avenged you true best friend Until the very end.