I'm not fooling anybody.

Current mood: numb I can't cheat. I can't wait. I only love, and I can't hate. I was scared of it. I secretly wanted it. Now when I think, I'm only haunted by it. I love you, sometimes I really miss you, dear. I want you, and I wish you were here. I'm angry with you, and I want you gone. I'm upset with you, for lying that long. I cry for you, because I'm confused. I forget for you, if it's drug-induced. This is easily the hardest part of life, having to think about you every night. Wishing I could tell you everything, but I know what mayhem it will bring. I wouldn't be me if it wasn't for you. Now that you're gone I don't know what to do. So lost, so torn. As if you were recently born. There's nothing even I, once such a lover, can do to take it out of your life. Should I cheat? Should I wait? Should I quit loving and start to hate? Beats me. [august 9, 2007 - 1:14 am - i will always love you sns]