there's no place to go
there's not many who know
that it still goes on.
not one that i can think of
and i keep it to myself.
i tried to push it away
but it keeps falling off the shelf
and in my lap.

tempting is this box.
i tried to keep it shut
but it opens and spills
memories and disgrace.
ones i wish to be forever hidden
and one day forgotten.
ones i tried to erase.
i wish they never were.
but it's too late to wish now.
there's no magic genie in this movie anyways.

blood and tears
it beckons me back here.
i tried so hard
but i find myself back
in exactly the same place.
my heart beating
at exactly the same pace.
the same motion and action
the same feeling and comfort
the same emptiness and i wonder
why it still doesn't hurt.

so numb and feeling strong.
i couldn't have been more wrong.
building up to the breakdown
hearing the sickening sounds
watching it spatter
as it's hitting the ground.

i didn't think i'd go back to you
back to you, old friend.
but i seems everytime you break into me
i'm shown mercy and i mend.
there's nothing like you
nothing else really pulls me through;
nothing.
not like you do.