Its A Feeling I Don't Want To Feel.

Its a feeling of neglect, like an owner to its starving dog. Not even being noticed, not matter how long you stand there. I could cry a million tears, scream out all my fears, and not one person would hear. Its a feeling of lonliness, the arms that kept me safe, suddenly gone and so far away. At night the cold air brushes against me, I curl up trying to keep myself warm. I watch as the sun rises, and it adds on to the numberless days that I'm alone. Its a feeling of depression, so hard to breath, but every time I do I hope its my last. Time goes unnoticed, as I lay there helplessly, waiting for death to rescue me. My whole body goes numb, nothing I touch feels real. Its a feeling of fear, I try to push away from you, so I won't get hurt again. But at the same time trying so desperatly to hold on to something but everything slips away from me so fast and all I can do is watch everything I love slip away from me. Its a feeling of anger, I just want to get my hands on someone, and let there crys feed my hate, give them all my pain so they know what it feels like to live in shame I'll let their blood ooze through my fingers as I gain power once again. Its a feeling I don't want to feel.