Lost My Way
I am tired of pretending
that everything is fine
when its not.
Where do I go?
Where do I run?
What do I say?
I lost my way again.
The days are long and boring and I am always home
Staring at the wall in silence.
Then night comes and I lay awake
Because worries fill my stupid head.
No one sings me lullabies
And no one makes me close my eyes.
Sometimes it rains
And I am alone
When lightning strikes.
And I get scared,
Please tell me who really cares!
I go outside and the wind moves my hair
And blows my tears away.
Silence goes with me everywhere
And my shadow is my only company,
but please don’t feel sorry for me.
Why even bother explaining others the way I feel
If they never understand.
Somebody listen please!
I am trying to find a hand to hold,
but every touch to me feels cold.
Show me the way.
It’s so hard being me.
I want to reach my happiness and to be loved.
I just don’t want to pretend any more.