i see my heartbeat 
they pound in my eyes
i feel no pleasure
in the days i despise
i'm crowded yet lonely 
crying inside with my pain
i try to shed tears 
i try so hard in vain
no tears will be shed 
no cries would be heard 
just laughter and smiles 
and bitter-sweet words
so no one will know
and here i will always be
alone in my solitude
where no one will see