How do I stay focused
Not looking left or right
and keep from being distracted
not letting you in my sight
 
your name so commonly mentioned
always turns my head
I pretend not to notice
as I long for what you said

I can't entertain this scandle
I know it can never be real
I have him and you have her
my longing I must conceal
 
Its all really foolish
and product of deep regret
I had my chance to have you
...a fact I cant forget

so again I try to ignore you
with my noes stuck in the air
and go on with this sharade
that I arrogantly do not care

for it is my only safty 
I know you cant see past
how sick I am without you
no fix I've found will last