I'm wondering if this is how 
My life will always be
Treading water, will I ever drown
In the rising sea?

I need the waves, I long for them
Though they suffocate
I need to know my future
Tell me, what's my fate?

If this is what my life looks like
Forever until time
I don't know if I'm up to it
Up to this steep climb

Sometimes I wish that I would drown
And sink into the sea
Maybe it would be better
If there was an end to me