Can't do it

Can't do it I can’t do it any more As it has not stayed in memory store Even though it tried to surface But I had to conceal it behind face How painful are those past events? They deserved careful attention with comments But alas! It was to be buried deep inside As life has changed its goal very wide “Deep wounds can be healed with time passage” It may do something good for feelings to assuage Yet some hard facts are never forgotten Even if life is lived long or shortened As a small child I was taken to near the bed Parents were laid on the ground as if completely dead They were not breathing and no movement was either This created deep impact in mind with fear I was told to move hand over their head See them at once and try to read I was told to prepare for procession to lead Hymns were sung loudly to complete the deed I sobbed loudly to witness final farewell How was I going to say alone for something to tell? Who would listen to me and take care? I looked at the sky but couldn’t dare I was coming of the age Yet everything was e to manage Life was going to be blank and plane page I was required to inscribe on it as sage Well t was destined hour o take the decision Everything for now onward was to be with precision Nothing was to be revealed to the relatives or friends I had to start it with fir hand till reaching the end