Where is she?

Not a single day has passed without you in mind Lots of excuses come across as thought to find You were never away in the past for a single minute You were uncontrollable at home and never remained mute Whole day passed off amidst your little noise You were always ready for something to poise You may venture for something and make my blood pulses up I had no option but to remain silent and shut up Today she is not in this lovely home I look at door steps for her welcome I know she may come any time and knock I puffed more from cigars and left thick smoke You have nice art to make me smile You will not allow gloom to descent even for while You may keep me engaged in lovely conversation Remind me all the time about commitment and healthy relation Her absence has made me totally blank From the sun rise I have taken nothing or drank I must admit her presence as some source of strength Without her I am unable to adjust or take comfortable breath I can do nothing without her being on my side She will lean on my solder and confide Whisper lovely and sweet words in my ears She had made me fully dependent on her for years Today I realize her importance when she is not here I used to neglect everything when she was with me or near She won’t bother me for even small things Life at home without her is dreaded for something Lovely home is zero without her sweet smile I am on bed and thinking for it meanwhile How come females have strong will power to control? When nothing can be made available without shout call?