Mountain doubt

There rises a doubt of mountain It is very difficult to contain That simply puzzles me about whole philosophy All my achievement gets dull shine reflected on trophy What actually I am thriving for to attain! What will be really useful in life to retain? There is no perfect and satisfactory answer May be it will be with visionary or with fewer I would love to project my self as I am I am like plant naturally grown from stem I will come up for a while, stay and disappear Why then all struggles for all to bear? I try to find out actual worth What I should do and wait forth? What can be real motive for staying in as very active? Why something should be avoided and be little selective? If you really ask me to disclose I shall discourage you I suppose I may look extra ordinary in others eyes But it is all illusory vain tries I shall do worthwhile in times to come That shall be in totality really welcome But it is not really going to be a fact I shall do and behave contrary in act I may think many things to perform But nothing shall come out as reform I shall stay where I am and do nothing As human being I have to hide something I have simple excuse to offer “Human beings are amenable to error” What else shall I try prove? When there is no space or room to move?