Ripples in spine

Many years have passed since then You were insisting to join me often It used to send me ripples in spine But I was comfortable and feeling fine My heart beats used to rise alarmingly I was not in sad state but felt warmly You had deep sense of pride and honor I was unable to stand even on floor Yet I was very much dreaming She was like home coming I never thought she may vanish all of sudden I had no slightest idea even I did not dare to open my mind I could see lines on her face and find It revealed me untold truth It needed no words or proof I have no regret of loosing her She was always willing to come here The luck would have it and she was gone I remained cut off as things remained undone Even today I feel she belonged to me Even though I was not totally free She may be seen several times nearby I never intended to see her or try Her close association would have made me sink I was never out of touch and it made me think I thought of old acquaintance but brushed aside It was improper for me to go so much wide I had cried several nights I don’t know whether it was wrong or right Yet I felt her absence as great loss She meant to be precious jewel as she was If ever I could disclose to her about my desire It should not have been proved satire I remained alone through out I learnt it wisely what the life was all about