i cringe at the thought of loosing everything
everything i thought i'd have forever
my family is dying
we stay by eachothers sides 
out of obligation
there is no love
the mother tries
the sister cries
the brother yells
the father lies
and the other child curls up 
in the corner

everything i could have had
was shone to my eyes
but all i can do is dream about them
my reasons for living
are leaving one by one
being pulled like strings
from my nearly threadbare scarf
once full of bright and vibrant colors
now left with greys and outlines of life

i think i have to leave them now
but i don't have the heart to tell
she'll twist my words 
and make them hurt
like she says i do
to her

i used to count on her 
for everything
she was my solid foundation
i'd tell her all my problems
and she'd always have an 
answer

but now i have to face things on my own
she's leaving me before i'm even grown

she denies it 
with every fiber of her being
claiming disrespect on my part
scorning my "ungrateful" heart

but no matter what she says
no matter what you see
I'm living on my own

my mom is leaving me.