Everyday
Is a struggle 
As the words I want to say
I mumble

Holding back
What I feel
A never-ending color of black
Can this be real

I do not yet know 
The people around me
I choose not to let them own
Me or my soul

They tell me that
I'm too serious 
Must have fun and smile
Forget that 

I do take
Things to heart
Make no mistake 
Its been torn apart