Dear Charlie
Dear Charlie 
Have I not cried enough tears 
Have I not spoken my peace 
Have I not prayed all I can 
When can the tears stop falling 
When can I get off the floor 
And uncross my hands 
Are my prayers not loud enough 
Can he not hear my cries 
Can he not see the pain 
When will it be my turn 
When will I have his ear 
When will he listen to me 
Wheres my miracle 
My bundle of joy 
Why did he forget me 
Why did he bless others 
Did he not care 
Did he feel it was not my place 
Not my place to love 
Why does he decide 
The fate that is mine 
Can't I have what I deserve 
What I've strived for 
I don't pray for war 
Or pain upon others 
I pray for the love 
The love that I need 
Tell him this for me 
Tell him its my turn 
Just this once 

I pray to you o lord 
Hear this simple prayer 
Bless this person 
Bless this stomach 
Bless this heart 
For I weep for the times 
When I could not 
But now it is better 
Give me faith 
Give me hope 
Give me a chance 
I want this 
More than you realize 
Please give me 
Give me... 

Her 
She is my light 
The hope I once had 
The faith I once knew 
The love I once adored 
Let me see her face 
Tiny and wrinkled 
So full of life 
Give me the love 
Give me the one 
Give me 

Her 




Dedicated to my unborn child. I won't guaruntee my first
child will be a girl, but it would be grand. 
Charlie is my angel and in loving rememberance of him, 
I will name my daughter Charli. 

Please help me Charlie, you are the only one who knows what
I've gone through my whole life. And this is what I need,
this is what will keep me going. 

I love you Charlie 
*looks at stomach* 
I hope to see you soon 
I love you Charli 

*kisses*