You really wanted this to happen,
You wanted me hurt,
Well I’ll tell you it worked,
For I am also disturbed
And I notice this new and unwanted feeling rise,
One to feel and want the sensation, to die,
I look up against the rain,
What has been brought on me, is internal pain,
I suppose now I am to bring the pain externally,
For some reason I want it very badly
And as I cry and plea
The knife slides sharply across my wrist as the rain falls,
My eyes drip with tears not rain, and I begin to ball,
Crying out in pain and misery,
Desiring your love and caring,
It is so hard bearing,
Living life without you,
I feel so confused…..

I wake in an ambulance, that is carrying me away,
I barely look open, in such a sorrowful way,
As I notice you at my side,
I sit there and wonder why,
  You came here when,
You were the one, that really wanted me to die.