I made another mistake
This isn’t unusual for me
But this one affects others
Why didn’t I see?
I played spin the bottle
I just wanted to have fun
I could have changed my mind
But the bottle had already spun
Three guys and one girl
I can’t believe that there was a chick
I didn’t think about my boy
Some would say I’m thick
I would say I was pressured
But that’s possibly an excuse
I didn’t want to lie to him
What’s the use?
I knew he wasn’t going to take it well
But I told him the very next day
He didn’t even say a word
He just turned and walked away
He wants me back as a friend now
But I really don’t think I could
I don’t want to see the damage I’ve made
Although I probably should 
I feel like the worst person in the world
I’ve been a complete whore
I was going to stop all my shit
But now all I want is more
I know I can’t do that
It’s not fair on me or anyone else
I want to know why I did it
I really am only hurting myself
I will never get over the last six months
I wish I could go back
I want to be perfect again
Even though I used to get all the flack 
I would have never cheated
I would have never caused pain
I used to have everything I wanted
I had everything to gain
I can’t go back only forwards
I have to try to forget
That’s where my habit helps
My minds already set
I get myself high
It’s the only way I can cope
I really want to do it
Short of hanging a rope
I’m not a happy person
I want to disappear
I’ve done so many stupid things
And the reason for it is not clear
Cheating is another mistake
And it soars up at the top
It soars just under my habit
The one that makes my brain cells pop
I’m just a cheating bitch
I did it because I can’t cope
I’m not capable of having a boyfriend
And this was easier then leaving you a note
It would have been easier
If I just said I’m leaving you
But I didn’t see that at the time
It would have been easier through and through
I shouldn’t have said I love you back
What is love anyway?
If I could feel it
Then would I even be able to say? 
You say love hurts
It feels like your heart 
Is bleeding and torn
It has been attacked and ripped apart
I was the attacker
I plead guilty for the crime
There is so much guilt
I wonder if it will fade in time

I’m sorry
I’m sorry to you
I’m sorry to myself
I’m sorry for you
I am not sorry for myself!
I would go back to you if it was fair
But it is not at all
I’ll just do it again
I can’t stop this fall
So this is my goodbye
But I don’t think it will be read
I really can’t be any sorrier
Every tear I have has shed
IM SORRY