Only as real as a dream

I had already given up, to me it was over. My head was already lowered, I had already turned my Shoulder. I had just begun to move on, my life was turning around. But then there you were just standing there and it all came crashing to the ground. I had built a wall of stenghth and believe me it was sturdy. I promised myself it would never fall, my hands were clean and I would never again get them dirty. I let my heart turn cold, and decided to let life take me where it may. But all along my brain was saying Kim, that just isn't the way. I couldn't live, I could't breathe, everyday was like a dream. I convinced myself I was happy, but every night as I tossed and turned alls I wanted to was scream. I know to you this may seem lame, but although it was you who brought me pain, last night while we talked and I felt you near, all the sudden the happiness came. You looked at me once and just like a song, it all made sense, this is where I belong.