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this isn't a poem, its a letter.


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Everything about you reminds me of what I dont want to
remember or think about, but Im always thinking about you.
We were never just friends so maybe thats why things are so
messed between us now, we never knew how to be friends and
it shows. I miss the way you used to talk to me and how you
made me feel like I was the only one in the world, or
atleast the only one important to you, even though obviously
now its not true. I was trying to prtoect myself by lying to
myself ... and you. Now im hurting more than ever and the
truth is haunting me, I knew I wasn't meant to be that
happy. The last time you kissed me I pulled away and I wish
I never left you like that and I'm so sorry for that, but I
guess you got me back in your own way. I only wish now that
you make her that happy. I wish I could hate you for what
you did to me, I want to so badly, and then maybe things
would get better. We fight now almost every day and it kills
me that we've been reduced to this, but neither of us is
going to let go. You said that maybe it was a mistake what
we did, but I know it wasnt, I think thats the worst thing
anyones said to me. If its worth anything it was worth it
all the while, and you were the best mistake I ever made,
and if I had the chance I would make the same mistake over
and over again. So I guess now Im waiting, maybe not so
patiently, for you to be ready to make the same mistakes
with me again. We've been through to much for us to give up
now and I know you still love me, or else you wouldnt wait
have waited for me when you said you were leaving. I know
you still think about us and wonder what we could have had,
and maybe one day we'll find out. We fight because its
easier to hate sometimes, its easier to find the bad then
the good because the bad is always on the surface, waiting
to be recognized. I know you love her now, and you want to
hate me so you can love only her, I know you try to hate me
and you hate me because you cant. Once you said you would
wait for me aslong as it took, I guess I took to long, but
now even if you never see this, I want to say ... its my
turn to wait now and I dont think either of us will ever
stop feeling for eachother because it goes so deep. For me
this is the hardest thing to say, even though you might not
hear it, but I loved you and I always wanted to say it, but
I was scared that it wouldnt have been enough. So now I
still love you, and if its not enough, atleast I tried. So
dont forget me, and what we had.
Posted: 2005-03-20 23:27:56 UTC

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2005-03-21 09:45:43My_pain_your_thrill
I think that this was brave, even if he doesnt read it, you know you tried. I made a mistake with a guy once who i loved deeply, and he was my best mistake too. But im still waiting, so while your waiting, live as well! :)

2005-05-31 04:46:05just me_
this is a beautiful letter. i know those 'mistakes' meant something to him too. i'm sure when he realizes all this you can make them again. i really like this. good job=)