Hurts.

Its hard. Its hard to see you and not feel anything, to try and be unhuman and numb. I have always felt something for you, and that something used to be love. But now you seem to not feel the same way, and i ask myself, what does she have i dont, the answer would be: YOU. I loved you more. I loved you longer. We grew up together. I went from a gauky young child, to a mature young woman. You were there. All those long summer days, and those crazy winter nights. I would wait forever for you, But im not gonna wait for someone you does this. I have feelings to, I have one life to live. And its not gonna be spent, wating for you to make up your mind, and when you come to relize how i felt, Baby, its to late. *emily* [this is about my soldier. he crushed me when he left for war, and when he found HER.]