it's a fear of growing older
my sun is fading
day is ending
i don't understand why i feel this way
lord, give me strength
jesus, help me
i should feel better about everything
i just want to fall asleep
and never wake up
my stomach is continuously turning
my hands consistently cold
while my mind reaches from the nearest answer
and gets handfuls of smoke
just when things were getting better
i fell back inside
the shadoes growing closer
the walls are caving in around me
darkness is left to consume my world
there's no light at the end of this tunnel
only silence
and my heart has grown cold
i feel i shall never cry again

dear jesus
i need help.