wrong

i idolized you i looked up to you i imagined you being everything and you were yes, you were at least, for me i loved you i spent so much time just loving you i was hoping you love me, too but hoping is for lovers and i am left without i poured so much time i remained so loyal so consistent so steadfast so forgiving days spilled into weeks weeks poured into months months flooded into years i can't distinguish one for the next but i have never forgotten a word that you've said never in my life has anyone meant so much i've taught myself not to shed a tear for you i am so used to disappointments it seems almost routine just sitting here like an idiot waiting for the phone to ring and knowing it wont i should have given up already should have known that i'd be stood up be dismissed be shrugged off be pushed to the side left abandoned forgotten alone used broken unloved unappreciated unsatisfied unsatisfying i knew it was a dream still, i tried can you blame a girl for trying? i guess it was all just a misunderstanding i thought i had it all right i guess i was wrong