questions of me

By deception •
i sit alone and wonder
if i did the right thing
will i be forgiven
does anyone care
where am i going
is it the right place
if i fall
will any one catch me
if not will i
be helped up off the ground
my heart is beating slowly
my eyes fill with tears
i ask you if
you love me
and i am full of fear
for i dont want to know
i hate myself for
the things i have done
the only question i ask
is can i forgive me