Everytime the same answer comes up
Why can it not change
Make it so we can be close
Make it so they are farther away
They tempt me
I try so hard to hold back these emotions
They cripple my love for you
I don't want you anymore
The next minute I do
I love you more than life
Then I want to die
I feel terrible, horrible
For having these feelings
A friend is called a whore
Am I no better now?
"I swear that I could go on forever"
Is not something I can say
I'm breaking down here
Trying to hold onto my sanity for you
I'm failing over here
But I can't let this slip
I can't let you see
That my love for you is dying
But growing each day
I love you
I hate you
I want you
I don't
What can I do now?
I've said too many things
I mean too many things
I can't just fade back into the darkness
Where you found me
Please just forget this lie we've led
I can't say no when my heart says yes
But I can't say yes when your heart says no
That day tested me, in more ways than one
I failed that day
I lied
I tried my best, and as always
My best wasn't good enough
That ride back to prison
The worst time so far
Now that I can't do worse than fail
Why not continue?
Continue lieing and failing and slipping again
You can't be here any longer to catch me
This "one bad day" won't end
It keeps replaying in this insane mind
I just can't survive any longer without you
I can't keep pushing myself to the edge
To have you barely hold on