What To Do

Everytime the same answer comes up Why can it not change Make it so we can be close Make it so they are farther away They tempt me I try so hard to hold back these emotions They cripple my love for you I don't want you anymore The next minute I do I love you more than life Then I want to die I feel terrible, horrible For having these feelings A friend is called a whore Am I no better now? "I swear that I could go on forever" Is not something I can say I'm breaking down here Trying to hold onto my sanity for you I'm failing over here But I can't let this slip I can't let you see That my love for you is dying But growing each day I love you I hate you I want you I don't What can I do now? I've said too many things I mean too many things I can't just fade back into the darkness Where you found me Please just forget this lie we've led I can't say no when my heart says yes But I can't say yes when your heart says no That day tested me, in more ways than one I failed that day I lied I tried my best, and as always My best wasn't good enough That ride back to prison The worst time so far Now that I can't do worse than fail Why not continue? Continue lieing and failing and slipping again You can't be here any longer to catch me This "one bad day" won't end It keeps replaying in this insane mind I just can't survive any longer without you I can't keep pushing myself to the edge To have you barely hold on