you intoxicate me
and subordinate me,
you conjure up in my mind
visions of what i'd like
life to be.

all i cxan find myself
thinking of
is you and where
or what you are
and i cant concentrate anymore
on what i am s'posed
to be doing
ugh. 

my life feels ruining
and i only want to let go
but something screams out no.
if i could just get
my heart around you
and get myself back on track
fuck.
this infatuation is whack.

you intoxicate me
and i like it this way.

xoxo
Ellie J