why now?

i don't why i'm hurting like i've never been hurt before i've been through these and many times have i cried so much i've been hurt abandoned and neglected And I thought that i'm Now stronger but i realized that i'm still weak hopeless and useless i thought hurting you is the best thing to do and that it would not affect me but then i was wrong cause i'm the one who's hurting deeply and i just can't help but cry cry cause i've made such a stupid mistake i told you we cAn be frIeNds but now i realized i wish i never did cause here you are telling me you like this girl telling me that she reAlly Is the oNe what if i tell you that i Am now deeply INlove with you would you believe me would you still care cause if you don't it's alright with me all the while everything's my fault i've made my self fall for you when you're Already catchIng someoNe fAllINg cause of you...