God please give me all the strength required to make it
through this night,
I pray you give me the courage I need to stay here on earth
and fight.
Save me from the horrors I face and which lie in store for
me,
Horrors I do not want to feel or to cope with or to see.
How close I’ve come to taking my life just to be rid of
all the pain,
Only the thought of your suffering, Lord, and my friends to
keep me sane.
I fear it may not be too long before I give into this desire
that I keep,
But please Lord God, have mercy when I fall into that
endless sleep.
You see I couldn’t face it God, the unending hurt and
distress,
Each night I prayed you take me from my life that’s such a
mess.
Forgive me for my feelings and give my friends and family
strength to carry on,
But then I doubt they would miss me that much if and when my
body’s gone.
I’m sorry I can’t cope and I resort to this form of
escape,
But I cannot find the help I need and in the end it’s
really too late.