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When did all this change go on for nothing?

What people are the ones who REALLY influenced me the most?

Why did I start caring about what they thought?

Who were they to me and me to them?

Was I just a Barbie they thought they could make and brake?
 
Where did I come into place in this story?

How come all of a sudden I mean something? 

This is just another place for me to be something they 
want need feed on. How can I make it stop so that I am the 
last one they use and abuse. Although I know I’m not the 
first I certainly hope to be the last. This force this 
person is seeking something far beyond what they now of. 
All stories are meant to end in happy endings but as all 
of us in the real world now. Nothing ends in
happiness………… 
especially if your one of the people involved in my life. 
When will they stop this brutal torture? I can feel their 
eyes staring at me trying to pierce my flesh like daggers. 
They touches cutting through me as I’m bleeding. It all 
drips away. The years of my sad painful life are seeping 
through the slits in my body and this was caused because 
of them somehow the work through my fake happiness and 
fine the real tears that hold me back from exploding dying 
and mourning the loss I know is soon to become mine. The 
take over from here and the poor victims think that they 
stood a chance in this place. Little did they know, little 
did they know.  Sometimes I try to 4get it happened that 
all happened. That it was all just a bad, bad dream but 
the more I try the more vivid it becomes in my memory why 
does this all happen to me how can I stop and who must i 
turn to. i know that if anybody is out there readint this 
just say something to me. anything. i don't care if u 
write 2 words or 2 hundred words i need some answers. if i 
don't then u might as well say bye

Posted: 2005-01-27 03:19:18 UTC

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2005-04-18 03:07:39wishing_on_stars
I have to admit, I wasn't sure exactly what you were trying to say. But after reading it a few times over, I finally understand it. The questions at the beginning really got me thinking about my life. Your poem really makes sense, with everyone I can think of. It's wonderfully written as well.

2007-10-19 18:51:49Angel of Music
wow this is just amazing! your are truly a gifted author