messed up thoughts

for every single thought i think... for every feeling i feel... for every person i hate... for every person i love... for every time i laugh... for every time i cry... for every time i bleed... for every time i scream... for every time i miss you... for every time i kiss you... for every time i give myself to you... for every time i scream out for you... i have a contradicting thought for all those deep feelings of love and affection... for all those days i was away from you... for all those minutes i felt like shit... for all those times i felt like dying... for all those endless days i hated myself... i have a good thought for every time i touch another guy... for every time i don't think of you... for every time i forget... for every time i break a promise... for every time i do a selfish thing... for every time i break your trust... i have sad thought for the time i said yes to another guy... for the times i've held other guys hands... for the times i thought of someone else... for the times i don't say stop... for the times when i like it... for the times i think about FUCKING someone else... for all the times i was a BITCH!!... I am sorry and i want you to forgive me for all my messed up thoughts!! please baby i can't live without you!!