To many people judge me because i dont show or cant show
affection one day in tears i wrote this.


You ask me my thoughts but i can only tell u for a moment,
it seems as if my mind drifts away while my body heart and
soul stays, stuck trap in the last thought that i thought.
You ask me to be a leader, but what shall i lead my feet
move but my body stays in the spot it las moved to. You ask
me to stay strong, but i am weakend everyday morning the
missing puzzle that can seal my broken heart. You say you
understand but it feels as if i stand alone in the last
place i stood. Now i stand drowning in the many sorrows and
castatrophies my body encountered since God chose me to walk
the awful land we call home. You ask me to be humble and i
do as you ask for that is all my body has known since i have
became numb to the many stressful events that has taken
place in the olympics of thoughts. my mind turns and spins
until i end up and the same spot i was in before the light
,darkness. Ask me to hug me i may say no. ask me to hug you
and ill wrap my arms around you showing affectionate love
that i never once felt before. A kiss, a hug and simple love
making i dont understand, for affection became my enemy when
i stood where i stood before, in the arms of affection that
ended in war.Dont judge me for you do not understand how it
felt to become a woman but confused by a man. If a hug is
warm and a kiss is right why is it constant tears i fight?
seeing me you wont understand until you stand. In the spot i
stand

Q.P LOYALTY