I think this drink and cigarette has been abused
Am i still a loser if i aint got nothin to lose
Hit rock bottom and im plannin to stay
Finally found a place to rest my head and lay
Ill look back and see how great it used to be 
Friends are gone and left my family
Because i left home for a dark sullen place 
These evil thoughts cant be replaced 
Im gonna snap one of these days
So for me all you can do is hope and pray
I havent been happy in about a year 
Every laugh and smile i give is incredibly insincere 
Im on the ledge tear blind eyes brain feels like mush 
Wish i had a friend, not to pick me up, but to give me a
push