My life so far 
Filled with pain 
From depression 
By the cause of heart break
By the loss of hope 
Options spread thin 
Coming to a close 
To the thought of 
Death 
Suicide 
By 
Self inflictions
Noose
Even a nightmare 
By drowning 
I can't constrain these emotions 
Love was what cherished most 
But it's too much 
I'm loosing myself 
Day by day
Through thoughts 
Of being alone
My Emotions of love 
Can't be restraint 
My heart aches 
Wishes to beat harder 
And faster 
But diminishes 
With out remorse 
I only wish for someone 
To love me 
Truly for who I've been 
For so long 
Without wants 
Or needs 
Only my affection and devotion 
To you 
But it will never be 
Not soon enough 
Will I regain 
Or control myself 
I may 
Sooner 
Or never 
Pull the trigger
For my own 
Good 
This feeling with flourish 
Deep in me as anger 
I will 
Not simply 
Leave you all 
With out leaving someone behind 
I only wish for someone to love for ME 
Not what I own 
Tis my wish on my soul 
Sold to death 
As collateral 
My final right as human 
My last words 
To you 
For bringing me back 
I love you