A little bit hazy, a little bit sad

There's a deafening sound in my ears and everything becomes a blur. It seems that I can't walk straight, and my words begin to slur. I've never known ecstasy until this moments come. And all I can do is stand here and wait as I become undone. The drugs begin to kick in and I can't feel myself. And it's okay, you know, because before, nothing's ever helped. The release is so sweet, and I feel so numb. I somehow feel like I'm dying, and for the first time, not afraid to succumb.