I feel likeim losing control, my
mind working overtime-
justifying things I know, in my
heart would feel like a crime-
how did I let it come this far, one
day wife and mother, the next
loving another-
I was the good girl who
would never stray-
I find myself falling, slowly
drifting away-
Something is missing and I keep
trying ti fill a void-
never ending pain and sadness
am I just paranoid-
my kids were my evrrything, now
their all grown-
they dont need mommy, they can
do it all on their own-
now I sit idle with too much 
time on my hands-
ive waited years to be free 
from all lifes demands-
too much free time is not 
always the best thing-
trouble is brewing and I can
see the damage it brings-
Slowly sinking into the abyss
of anothers charms-
contemplating waking up 
in his arms-
knowing its not right, but who
is going to find out-
this is the lie that taunts me,
whats that all about-
telling me its ok to cheat just once
but thats it-
I know its the work of satan
and he can save his bullshit-