Love you to death !

When you hear you're no good so often,you start to believe it When you have not been loved for so long it's hard to receive it You belittled me in every way,every hour of every day With never ever a good word to say Well it's nearly over now,I've chose a way On this cold still September day With foot on the stool and rope around my throat It's just dawned on me,i have left no note Well its to late now,just one final kick My head is dizzy my stomach sick And before I take my final breath And meet my certain untimely death A thought crosses my mind that life's not fair I'll be gone tomorrow,will you even care ? I would love to have known how you really feel But I will never know,because this is real If it's possible to love in the after life I'll still despite of it all,love you forever my darling wife.