The Hardest Thing Ive Ever Had To Do

Taking time to fix my life & my ways, is so damn hard to do with all the stress I'm under these days. I try so hard to do the right thing but stress & sorrow is all it brings. My life is so screwed up all the time I swear, and it seems like nobody even really cares. I think to myself on ways to make a huge change, and I know that its my ways I'm gonna have to totally rearrange. As my eyes fill up with all the tears, I am all of the sudden faced with all my fears. Fears of being all alone & fears of failing as a mother in my home. I feel the darkness closing in with the passing of each & everyday, contemplating what to do & what it is I should say. Its going to be the hardest thing I have ever had to do, telling my husband of 12 years that we are through. But I can't take the pain of the abuse & him being unfaithful any longer, and I know with time I will get stronger. As of now I am so very very weak, there's times I can't find the words to say & forget how to even speak. But its time I stood up & became the mother that I need to be, my babies need me now more than ever can't they all see. Its not going to happen overnight or anything like that, its gonna take some time but its worth it & that's a damn fact! I know I can do it, Really, I know I can! And I know I can do It without any man!! * Written By: Andrea L. Wallace *