You Don't Understand

I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside I wonder if my dad will ever come back I hear my mom say his name I want you to know I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside I pretend I don’t care as if it doesn’t mean a thing I feel like no one would understand I touch the picture we took together 10 years ago I worry he forgot about me I cry when special moments come up in life and he is no where to be found I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside I understand he loves me I say he will come running back I dream that the pieces of my heart will find his way back home I try to act tough so I don’t have to face the fact that I don’t have a dad to hold and to hug I hope you get me now I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside