Hear me out

Hear me out!! You said speak and you'll listen But I feel as if your ear is to the world Waxed up from the filth we've instilled within it Can you hear me On this emotional roller coaster of Faith without a harness See I'm trapped in space Where my free fall doesnt feel so free Unless I die to something my heart could'nt let go of At least not by its own strength Greater is He in me But lesser I feel with Him Maybe because i've constructed a wall of shame That hinders the Joy He told me I could grasp I've melted in my flaws Without a wipe to cleanse my regret As they forget who forgives? Its me who lives with too much weight to bench press Your burden is light so why won't I rest this on you Could it be me trying to take on the world Without a map to its destination Or this fabricated blueprint I decided to live by See my past wrestles my present for my future And this old timer is fighting in its prime So my present doesn't feel as gifted Lifted up is dejection with a sideline of defeat Therefore I fight no more Leaving my past on my feet As I walk through the narrow You told me not to worry But that shadows my faith See you say your there but I see nothing And you say you care but I feel nothing At all So as I embed my belief I switch shifts in my mind Rewinding back those lines See and feel What is real? If I screamed at you Would I feel the passion Of your everlasting love Above all it defines your hug Your embrace And place in my heart If I could just taste your mark Set my mind and go for your grace Tell me how to start Hear me out Lord Its time for your part