Answer This

Lord is our relationship real? At least on my end Cause I feel as if i'm just pretending Trying so hard to shed tears through this pain With no gained interest from my heart I've started My spiritual detour With no GPS God's Protectitive Sheild Lord when I fall to my face Am I falling in your Grace Or falling to the place gravity choose not to elevate Maybe I should find my fetal position And pronounce my fear Is this the life of my New Birth Or am I just an Avatar waiting to awake from life's wilderness Is this real Lord? I suffer And try to remain calm But my peace is disturbed by my Praise Because my Praise is raised in morning Internal weeping, and non-dependable doubt I crowd this bond with thoughts of opposition Wishing I could be perfect To avoid living to prove worthiness To a God I truly want With no feelings to show my vocal expression Maybe I should quit Without a white flag Cause I'm too weak to hold up my surrender If your the healer Why am I still sick of myself See when I die I want to cry the moment before And tour the timeline of my sorrows With Faith as my escort Cause I can rely on that To get me back In time to close my eyes I'm on shames hospital bed Without a nurse to exam my countless worries I thought You were my shot of Joy All I got was a meal full of guilt And a pan to piss my life away in I need surgery And Your hands are gifted But I'm too lifted in this random high To realize that your just preparing me for my worldy demise May I please cry? Just supply the tears And I'll shed them They were lost souls And I led them Fill my Faiths holes So I don't drain out Laid out is my flesh And in my flesh Satan rests at the sound of resistance And its hard to resist temptation Cause patience is practiced in my spirit Therefore I remain playing tug of war With consequences and possibilities I'm getting pulled into the middle And that's a pit of Endless hope This rope Is attached to my neck Wrapped in the tightest soul tie If I break this, then I break me If You break this, then I break free Where are you Lord Cause this real is all I see Answer this And I'll take You in all Three