My Life- To my father and people

My life is ruined in a single second My heart is filled with traumatized tears At the first time it happened it cannot be erased You chose to do this on that very same day My body is frozen My heart is cold My blood has waken as you touched my soul But the times goes by you did not changed your mind You kept on going as you touched my body You are supposed to protect me But you did not as well You decided to break the trust as it filled my broken heart My mind is racing as thoughts cries for help You did not hear it as you took your mind on me The time is ticking My heart is pounding There is no choice but to be hiding As the day goes by, my life has changed But the time goes by it has to be arranged My heart is filled with tears as the same as the past Now my mind is full of fears as it races very fast I feel invisible as my life is too But it is possible to not be just like you You have destroyed my life when you used me But I have this hope that will surely lead me I have a dream that I am a victor not a victim but I will show you that later Everytime I put this mask My inside is hiding No one knows my feelings except for my smile As it shows I am happy but I am surely sad I have to show my feelings but I just can't I am just weak but not strong No one knows my life but me My soul is not accepting my body I am not safe in me but I am not safe in others You won't care because you're criminal Everyone is calling me names even my friends in class My life feels like a game when people break my heart Everyone is rejecting me as I became invisible I would love to die as no one cares Everyone turns around as I ask for help No one accepts my feelings as i cry to die I run away for good nut I am returning to life I don't want this as people want me back They are showing their love for short but I am crying for long No one cares for me as I should die I ask God "Kill me before you're eyes" But God doesn't want because I'm his innocent child I was kind to you I was supporting I was loving you until my life turned upside down I was getting bigger because of you My heart cried for help but no one heard as they went on their own I couldn't find my path as I got confused "What's happening to me" Am I crazy? I am smart so am dumb Which one is true that people calls me Life should end but also start It can be weak but also strong Life is in the blood that captures events of sadness and happiness There is some ups and downs But you shall listen to your heart It might be hard but it can be easy Make your life positive Get away from negative Show your feelings when needed But smile when you are happy Life can be great but can also be worse Times flew by but you can catch it Be Happy Be Sad Be Angry It's all what you had