regret

I made a choice a long time ago. 14 years old feeling so low. My boyfreind said it was for the best. After we found the result for the test he was 19 but he didnt care. Now i wish id of argued said its not fair. Young in my head i went through it anyway. Something i regret every single day. I was all alone in the hospital bed. So many wonders in my head. I didnt really think it was wrong at the time. I thought everythings great i will be fine i was months gone why didnt i care. I couldnt tell my family i didnt dare. He would go to prison and id be left sad. I didnt tell anyone nor my mum or dad we split months after my terrible mistake. Every time i think about it my heart begins to ache. I met another idiot,had to tell the truth. Id got rid of my baby in my young youth i told my mum, my brothers too. My dad and brother cried so much they could of turned blue. Now im older kids of my own. I dont feel so much sad nor alone but if i had one wish to fly to heaven it would be. So i can bring my baby back down to spend a lifetime with me