Facing Your Demons

I never liked my engagement ring; it never made me feel blissed; Because my ex-common-law husband is an atheist. On it, there are several diamond crosses; Which now, to me, symbolize my losses. My ex sends out conflicting messages which are not a reliever; Because, long ago, he was a believer. But then, he says, he grew up and grew wise; I've been told it was the point when his father dies. It was such a terrible tragedy to have someone special who passed; And, at school, he was harrassed. One doesn't make terrible jokes about a tragedy; Ask a sensitive person, and he will agree. My ex claims the he just grew up and became wise; But, to himself, my ex often lies. He does it to hide his pain; Which has made him very insane. He has no desire to get therapy; he just wants to hold it inside; He needs to have a special guide. Because, one day, it will all come out; That's what bettering yourself is all about. But, someday someone's going to push the wrong button; And this person will be as dead as mutton. And then my ex will be committed; Because, to himself, there are things he has not admitted. I don't want to be there on that day;