Am waiting...

i dream of something good but i end up with something bad i trust in God a lot but always devils lead me i wished to become the very best student but donno i ended up with zero in my college i wished to become the friend of God but donno i cursed God several times i wished to become the very best lover but donno i had to cheat my boyfriend i wished to become the world's best wife but donno am no more worthy to become a wife Oh God, why my wishes dont come true may be my weakness, my madness am ruined, am becoming a bitch but still, i love you my God only you can help me, only you can save me i hv everyone, my parents, relatives but i am always alone ,always lonely i am always sad, always bad God, i thirst for your love, for a new life i have put my trust in you, my life in you now its your duty to save me,to help me u cant escape without saving me am waiting...................