MY BODY RAVAGED BY PAIN,
MY MIND FRACTURED & FRAGMENTED LIKE BROKEN GLASS.
I GROW WEARY FROM LACK OF SLEEP,
MY DREAMS COMPROMISED BY VISIONS OF MY PAST.

I FEEL MY FATHER CALLING TO ME,
BECKONING TO TAKE MY PLACE AT HIS SIDE.
DEEP IN THE BOWELS OF HELL,
WHERE HE & OTHERS LIKE ME RESIDE.

I REALIZE IT’S WHERE I BELONG,
AFTER ALL I’VE SAID & DONE.
TRUTH IS,
I DON’T EXPECT OR DESERVE FORGIVENESS FROM ANYONE.

EVEN THOUGH I ATTEMPT,
TO BE THE GOOD MAN OTHERS BELIEVE ME TO BE.
I HIDE WHO I REALLY AM WITH EQUAL EFFORT,
MASKING THE HORRIBLE THINGS I’VE DONE…WILLINGLY.

MASKING THE DARKNESS IN MY SOUL,
AND THE KINDRED SHADOWS IN MY HEART.
THE WAR BETWEEN WHO I AM & WHO I WAS,
IS LITERALLY TEARING ME APART.

WILL I FIND SALVATION OR COLD SOLITUDE OF THE GRAVE,
FOLLOWED BY DAMNATION & RIDICULE?
WILL I BE JUDGED FAIRLY…AFTER MY WORDS ARE READ,
OR WILL I BE SIMPLY WRITTEN OFF & CONSIDERED A FOOL?

EITHER WAY…I GUESS ALL I’M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT IS,
THE LEGACY I LEAVE MY FAMILY.
THE MEMORIES & LESSONS I PASS ON,
IS HOW I WANT HIM THEM TO REMEMBER ME.

NOT FOR WHAT I’VE DONE,
NOT FOR THE PERSON I’VE BEEN.
HEAVENLY FATHER…IF THERE’S MERCY LEFT FOR ME,
NEVER LET THEM…FIND OUT ABOUT MY SINS.

NEVER LET THEM FIND OUT,
WHAT I’VE DONE OR HOW FAR I FELL.
LET THEM BELIEVE…I WAS A GOOD MAN,
DESPITE THE LIKELIHOOD…I’LL JOIN MY FATHER IN HELL.