Father

What can I say? I used to inhabit the felling of betray But would not display These emotions of being alone and lost Tossed Away into the frost Of cold abandonment The torment Of knowing your fraudulent Life put a dent In my own being Seeing You fleeing With other women Disagreeing with your disease of Drinking True many years ago We were happy and without woe In the beginning You would bestow Love and fatherly compassion But as time went by we were no longer in fashion No longer the apple of your passion You want what you can’t have In others you seeked love Even though it surrounded you on earth and above Between the bottle and women We were never good enough to compete With that You could never find yourself complete Always throwing deceit At us And it would always repeat You would tell mom Never again Change you have She was so sweet And her you go on to defeat her Cheat her Deplete her And when she would leave You would constantly grieve her And she was so naïve She would believe In you Trust in your heart That you could achieve Eventually she gave up I would not I had hope From many moons I would mope Where did my father go? Where is the man that loved me so? I trembled on the rope Of hope Desire to have my happy family back Trying to deflect all the attacks On myself By myself A dark period Thanks to you It took my own strength to cope You did not pick me up when I was down Your departure simply mocked me like a clown And continually tried to drown Me in my own everlasting sadness But now I am null Casting a unemotional glare At the skull That is our relationship Thread that bond us Waiting for the snip I cannot forget How upset You make me But I feel you fear to set all free To make thing right You fear you own mistakes And fear a fright That might Destroy you Tonight however, I awake And partake In the realization That despite all my frustration You are my father Tonight and forever