im lost in my own mind
can't find the way out
dont really want to 
i just want to forget about everything and everyone
i hate my life i want to bury the memories deep within the
ground and leave them their for someone else to find or
maybe not
i dont want to live like this anymore
i remeber my mothers cries and my fathers yell all to well 
i remeber all of the things that have happened to me and my
brothers and my mother
happiness no longer remains
their is no more laughing or singing or dancing 
my people would not be proud to know what we have done with
our pride 
we let him beat us down into thew ground no longer caring
wheather we will be here tomorrow or the day next 
i prey to the lord to help me
but i just sink further and further into nothingness
i numb all that i feel i can't feel anymore
all the times she and he and they have hurt me i will no
longer feel for them 
i am done with this i will be like stone