Fucked Up Situation

If I say I'm through with you Then why am I conversing the truth All these frivolous things you say Subsequent to what happened yesterday I'll pretend I'll surely move on But we both know no one's that strong I have ammunition to make a new decision But it's my fault I don't stray I stay Even though I'm no longer yours I stay Because it's easier this way And even though I know You play these games Maybe I'm not so certain I don't wanna play I think it's just a fucked up situation It's just a fucked up situation We both have to engage in None of us had to do this to ourselves But the challenge is something else I'm still compulsively checking your responses And I'm still waiting for the pain to numb But the closure does nothing for me Because on the inside I was very aware Of the things that polluted your brain The things that drove you insane And I wasn't one of those things I was just another burden Something to keep you hurting And not even in a way I would've wished for You bastard It's just a fucked up situation We both have to engage in None of us had to do this to ourselves But the challenge is something else I'm a vulnerable creation I'm my own fucked up abomination You think I'm some kind of angel But all you see is this halo You don't know shit about the inside You can pretend with all you're insight And after a fucked up situation You're left with all these scars But one day you'll see the resemblance That they have with the stars Settled in the night sky I wish I was your bodies moon But I understand that'll never be So I'll walk away with your sympathy When all I wanted was your undying love But that lover was never me Not like how I wanted it to be...