If I Did It?

If I did it would he care? If I did it would he be there? I wish I could die. I don't like to cry. It's all so hard. I can't keep up my guard. I feel like it's a joke. When he just wants to smoke. If I did it would he love me? Would we still be we? I wish I didn't hurt. I wish I could tell him how I feel. Then maybe my heart would heal. I love him so much. I melt with just a touch. But if I did it would he stay? Or would I be the one to pay? I am his wife, But would he give his life? This is the part I hate. But he is my mate. If I did it today, Would they still be okay? Angel Ralph