WHAT DO I DO?

here i am stuck in this home where happiness doesnt exist and i am all alone where every possible abuse is all i get and suicide i have yet to commit so too over come these struggles what do i do do i try to lean my crying head upon the shoulder of you, but i already know you all wont let me stay so then do i say its time for me to runaway or do i cut because for a moment the pain leaves but the pain is still there when theres no more room to cut and bleed all i want to know is what do i do? what could i possibly do? its to bad that the answer that stuck in my head and that i am forced to respond is:nothing.i cant do a damn thing but just sit back and except all the pain that everyone is just so willing to give me.all because i cant do anything about it.