Pressure 09-04-09

Strained my heart beats to rapid to catch Mind racing as it tirelessly attempts to match Inside pressure builds as threats rise Even after I feel I've expressed goodbyes Will he ever leave me alone? I think I've proven I can cope on my own His crap I won't continue to accept My tears are mine alone to have wept Perilously feeling on edge Nervously swaying standing on a ledge Internally shaking due to external pressure My mind set I find hard to measure Wary of who walks behind me Feeling terrified of him my eyes may see Why does he continue to behave so cruel? Is he so intent on my anxiety to fuel? Why I don't think I will ever understand Determined not to let him gain the upper hand Sagaciously I control my respiration Profoundly searching inside for clear inspiration On my support circle for now I lean Maintaining functionality to support my teen For he is my real he is my drive Displaying mental fortitude I do strive Believing in leading by example Conscious of his sensibilities not to trample To alleviate my sons stress I willingly take All his extra tension I'd rather my heart ache I feel like I’m being pulled in all directions Mindful of my son to display genuine affections As pressures build within I must vent Holistic strength conscious not to dent Motivated by my sons well being Unconditional love I want him to be seeing To guide and protect is my goal From the first day till the last is a mum’s role!